unknown: hello girls, how are you, these flirting rules are useful, I have used some of them before ... okay heres my story and if I don't disturb you, I want to know your thoughts about it... so I am 17 years old 11th grade, when I was in 10th I changed school and in the new school I had a new english teacher who is foreigner and is a traveller... he is 36 he is much older than me and I dont want to seem like a silly girl or something, but here's a point, you never know who you fall in love with, and besides a teacher is a human too and in addition, if he is so handsome, doesn't look like most of 36 years old people look. but when I first saw him I didn't know I would have liked him as a... I thought I just liked him as a person and just because he was funny, active and etc. met him in a teachers room, accidentally smiled at him (he was about to get out the room and I was smiling at his back lol... didn't think he would look back...) he was surprised I think but remembered me, and after the first class, I think after a day or two, he asked me at school near my classroom "how are you" which surprised me a lot and got me confused... the next step was mine, was confident enough to talk to him in a cafe thought I could just be talking to him sometimes and nothing more because I knew he was my teacher and much older and I didn't even thought about other things... so we were closer than he used to be close with the other girls, he used to be with boy students all the time... we were listening to music sometimes in his headphones before classes would start. and we had a winter holiday, and when we came back to school, I don't know if it was for real, but he was approaching me like he wanted to kiss me hello, but I didn't move and he stopped. but he was much colder before something happened... I have a beautiful thing - thank God for it... I painted his portrait, it was so similar to him. and when he had a birthday, I took it to school. that day, when I was finished with all my classes, I couldn't find, but when I found him, kissed him told him happy birthday and then surprised him with my present... he was laughing so hard and was so impressed.. and after 2 days when I saw him, he looked at me and his eyes got warm, and put a smile upon his face. I know he checked my facebook out with his friends. everybody knew I painted him , and he uploaded that picture on his fb too.. but really, that was nothing. after it he started coming to my class (he hated my class mates and the situation because all of students liked him at school but not only my class mates, so they were not listening to him, and he had had told me that he wouldnt come to my class, but see how changed mind he got. (later he told me, "i was coming to your class because of ..... blah blah blah, and because some of you wanted me to come... ) actually, it was me who wanted him to come and he knew it. I was asking him sometimes). at classes, he didn't tend to pay attention but sometimes asked me personally if I got something, which he didn't do with other students... we were listening to music more than before, and we were playing with my tennis ball on breaks. he had known that I liked a boy at our school , but he wasn't laughing at me about it (if he knew that students liked each other, he laughed at them simetimes, but not like getting them upset or something.. ) , when he caught me talking to that boy, his body language was questionable, maybe he was standing some metres from us and was talking to other students, but turned to us and looked at us with a strained face. that happened for several times.. and when they were standing with each other, if I chose him to talk and not that boy, he seemed satisfied and the boy was jealous, like :"doesn't he have to go?" and there was a moment when he was asking me for something to give him and when I sstepped back and told him NO , teacher appeared and he was smiled almost I couldn't notice his smile but I did... like "smile with the eyes" and a bit of smile with a mouth , because I had denied that boy, didn't give him a tennis ball which I wouldn't do with ... him. there were 2 times when I was going downstairs and he was going upstairs, and when we said hi, I got on the first floor and suddenly, I turn my head and he is there too! you can imagine, he had a thing to do e.g. on 3rd flood, and I was going to 1st, and I think he must be on 3rd now, but suddenly I see him ! and there was a moment when I was standing beetween 1st and 2nd floor with my friend and have a conversation with her, and he appears on 2nd floor, just watches out of window, then changes a place and watches out of another window,,, then tries to go upstairs (I can see his legs ), for no reason, he returns back to the windows... and we are the only students who stand near to him. I was just thinking he was waiting for a class to start, but it appeared he didn't have any classes that day when he walked away and got out of school! so he was standing there for 5-10 minutes for no reason... he was fone and he could go. why didn't he? and after the classes my class mates were like, oh we think he tries to get your attention because he lookes young and he has a mannerism which can catch your eye... but I didn't think so because he is like that all the time. here's another moment when he was standing in front of me in the class room, I had my seat, and he was talking about something, I looked at him, and he looked back, and I didn't look away, neither he did, and we were looking at each other like that, and the seconds were passing, he even stopped talking and started staring into my eyes, so did I. actually, we used to stare into each other's eyes so often... he was going to fly away when we had a class and after a class he came to me with his bag and started talking, I was like, wow, because he gave me his coloured pencils that he had been using before. I was surprised and I kissed him of course on a chick lol. when he walked away I imagined being without the feeling that I would see him at school and that was so hard so I was about to cry, and when I got alone so I did... because that idea was hard to accept. and the last day I went to him, asked him a hug, and he himself hugged me... which was my favourite hug! and I told him " I will miss you and I love you so much !" I kissed him again, I was about to cry and I finally got out of school, and I knew his address and the fact that he liked playing with my tennis ball, so I left that in front of his apartment door, and o I wrote a letter with his pencils as well, like : " I hope it was not the last time I saw you. have a good flight, you know who I am". and when we chatted, he told me that of course he knew it was me... and I used to cry, and I thought I was silly, how could I love someone like this, with so many obstacles, but you know human's nature... we love the ones who can't be with us. I really thought he didn't care about me, and an insane summer had begun to him, because he can travel and that stuff, and you know my reaction when I see his photos, and I read a comment : my name, and he's telling me, can you see your tennis ball... he didn't tag me in that comment so I was thinking, he wanted to know if I still crossed his profile... I answered him after almost one month because I haven't seen his comment for 2 weeks and another 2 weeks I decided not to answer because I was in the village and on my phone... when I got in town I answered him, he told me he thought I would like to hear they put a ball in good use all summer... and he thought that was an amazing going away present... and he asked me how was my summer.. and that was all because my reply wasn't perfect, I told him some things which could make him think I love him, but I didn't asked him back, I told him that I knew his summer would be good so I wouldn't ask... so that was all, I didn't chat with him because when he was here , I texted him and he was like, text me two or three words and then didn't reply and I didn't feel good for my pride. which is so down because of him and always has been. but I tried that after two months or so, and I was so surprised that I got his answer , and he started talking about his things, for e.g. dinner and how he lives where he is , how his summer was and that stuff.. I was excited, and you know that butterflies you get in your stomach, I get them even when I am thinking of him , and you can imagine how I felt while chatting with him after not seeing him for months ... and I felt I could talk to him sometimes and I did it, e.g. if I texted him, I could wait 10 days or 2 weeks and then text to him again. and that depends on his mood, if he's in a good mood, he will talk to you and if he is not, he answers but not so funny etc. he never says hi, but he never says good bye, even if he isn't using his computer he startes using his iphone while watching a show or something... if I ask him , hey do you want me to text you later, tell me, but he avoids that kind of questions and never gives you an answer. and I am the one who always says hi and always ends a conversation herself, which makes me feel like ... I do not know what. and that was a beautiful day when he appeared online after not having an internet for 3 weeks, and I am like : " I will text him later but not now." just looking at his name and that green ball which makes us know if a person is online.. and what a beautiful moment when I see someone messaged me and that is him! and he messages me just like, 1 message, 2 messages, 3, 4... I was looking at a screen just like an idiot, couldn't even react or something, I was late for 10 minutes lol.... because we had known each other for a year and a month and he had never texted me I swear! that was the first time.. and I had a private classes teacher for 2 months who is his friend, he helped me to have that guy as a teacher, which was so good and we were talking about him too... and I think I have said things which will make him think that I love him, and I have no doubt that he would tell him what I said about him... and when I thought I would see him after 4 years, it appears he is gonna come back for ten days or something in winter! can you imagine my excitement.. he says he missed his friends... and you know, when he leaves, I have a birthday and he had told me he would come if he was there, but he won't be here, so I asked him just to forget when I have a real birthday, and just come celebrate with me and my friends before my real one, when he is here... I am doing that just because of him. nad he knows that. and his answer was, yeah he will come by no problem but he will drop by, just like come say hello and leave soon, and I told him shhhhhh I will have something for you as I promised (I mean a drink which is much liked by him). so he answered : "if that's what you want to do.... that's cool..." DO YOU THINK THAT MEANS THAT HE WILL STAY FOR LONGER TIME? and when we were talking it came to clothes and we were talking about classic clothes, and I was just joking when I told him he could take one photo for me in classic. and he said ok but he didn't , sometimes saying that he is really busy at school and... I am not a bugger I won't ask him for thousand times but I am a little upset, even though I know he is really busy there ! I am looking forward to see him. I am a bit changed after he left, taller and slimmer and more girly... and better clothes, and make up. I want to tell you that we were talking about a girl who is my school mate and I was talking about her boyfriend, she is 16 now, and he told me that she is too young to love somene, but I got upset because I am 16 too (almost 17 but... when I was 16 I loved him then too!!!), and I told him if she is not 7 no matter, she can love someone at this age. and he agreed with me atm, I don't know why - he really agreed with me or just because he didn't want to argue with me about that? i mean, do you think he thinks I can't love him? because this makes me angry, that I do everything to make him feel, and I have doubt he doesn't think my feeling is worth of calling love ! but he has just to come to me after years and ask me if I still love him, and when he gets an answer YES, we will know I loved him when I was 16 too... but older people think that he feels that. and oh I almost forgot that he's got a girlfriend - and he says : "we decided to make an effort - we shall see what happens. but for a marriage is a no. I like being with me too." do you see much enthusiasm? I mean, if I love someone, I won't say, let's just make an effort, I don't care what happens but let's try, oh you know I like being with me too. his girlfriend wouldn't be so happy if she heard that obviously.... he has so many admirers. so many girls love him or like him, and he is so free, just like a bird. so as you see, his body language is doubtful, he does some things that makes me think that his heart is not cold for me, but as he talks, he makes me think he doesn't even care about me. I don't know what is happening, I have hope. I don't know if you think I am crazy. yep brain works 24/7 all our lives, until we are in love... Jesus, his eyes make me feel he cares for me , but his words are painful sometimes... what do you think? do you think he might think about me or something. provide all the things I told you. all the little things makes a big thing. and plus I am so happy that he knows my soul first than my looks. I was much worse than I am now and he still had conversations and thought I was smart (he has said that). just tell me what you think about it. e.g. do you think I have a little chance or something one day ? do you think he tries to avoid me because he knows his hearts is not so cold for me? does he believe that I love him ? God. he is so good person. beautiful and smart, and hardworking, and polite, and etc. just do not blame me if you have not experienced real love. because there are no rules. you never know what happens in your life. walk in my shoes for a moment. thank you in advance, so much. P.S. sorry that I took your time, but thanks. I am just thinking, if I have forgotten something... but let's comment !. :))
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